First off let me just say that I love all of you. I feel totally better and completely greatful for this beautiful life that I have. Thanks for all the love, support and prayers that you sent our way. This last month has been so bitter sweet, but in the end, we've learned a few lessons:

lesson #1...The very hardest times in life can also be the most precious...if you let them be.
lesson #2...Never take eachother for granted
lesson #3...Heavenly father is keenly aware of us. I have thought long and hard about this little baby that we've lost. I can't explain in words how awed I am by the love of a heavenly father that would allow us to be bound together for eternity.
lesson #4...We live in such an incredible time and place (seriously people I should have been dead like 15 times by now)
lesson #5...Life is so fragile
lesson #6...I have been totally overwhelmed by the outpouring of love shown to me. We have the best friends and family. Seriously people WE ARE SO LUCKY TO HAVE EACH OTHER. We are so thankful for how immediately upon hearing about what was going on, Mom rushed down from the cabin to sit in the waiting room with Ryan while they operated on me, for the nights Mom and Ali spent here taking care of all of us, the way that Tiana rushed down without a word when we needed help taking my babies so that we could get to the emergency room, Jared babysitting and forcing healthy food down their little throats, Flowers and meals from our parents, the way Kristen came to take care of the kids as i slipped in and out of a drug induced coma, how Jake and Ash came to check on us time after time, how Ashlee would come just to pick up my kids cause she knew that the doctor told me I couldn't, when Katie chased after K and Con all over the cabin for her entire New Years holiday so that I could relax and heal, the friend who sat and held my hand, put her arms around me and cried with me, how countless of you sent me a text, a note, a call, or came to visit just as I was starting to feel sorry for myself, and made me realize that I have so much. And the sweet man that I love holding me in his arms day after day telling me that he loved me and it would be ok. Ry you have been so good with me through this and I love you more than I can say. I know that it will be ok because you say it will, and that's good enough for me.
I am so grateful. We are so blessed.